Rest Well Dad

In the early morning there you laid,

silenced by the last breathe you gave,

your mouth agape and eyes opened wide;

in that moment we could no longer deny

you had finally come to your end.

As we held your hands softly in the

quietness the moment finally settled in; we

painfully released tears deep from within

realizing  now nothing more of you remained;

no more struggles and no more pain.

Overcome from the memories we shared

the grief of losing you so hard to bear;

as we saw your vitality slowly stolen

all of your years came down to days;

what was given was terribly taken.

Even though you knew your eventual outcome,

you looked on life with a deep ponderance.

Exuding warmth and love was your essence;

words so profound yet simplistic in manner

touching others in an everlasting fashion.

Now comes the arduous task of moving on,

leaving all behind what was the past;

no choice now but for us to be strong.

I know deep inside that’s what you wanted

though the memories will still leave me haunted.

So, I’m leaving this place never to come back again;

too many memories that just brings up pain.

Carrying with me the ones that pleasantness brings,

your voice, your touch, your laughter and the such

knowing that I take the parts of you I loved so much.

Copyright by NewLife2008

Treacherous Heart

Wicked and twisted,

I never had a chance;

of petulant character

you refused to sympathize.

Slighted, you reasoned

a motive to capitalize,

unremorseful was your stance.

With a treacherous assault you attacked

with every ounce of your being;

you didn't think twice to hold back.

With such ferocity it sent me reeling,

taken aback not sure how to react;

my only thought is a painful recognition

of the irreversible damage you exact.

Never did I think this could happen;

of you I was so convinced

but now I’m on the floor grappling;

my mind trying to make some sense

of the aftermath you left me with.

Emotions torn like flesh on a barbed wired fence,

sadly I have only myself to blame for this.

so desperate yet I trusted you still,

now my life is all torn apart

to exact my revenge is my only will;

I’ll be done with you when I kill – my treacherous heart.

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Swallowed

Inside my heart, I find a black hole exists;

there sadness and hopelessness persists

despite the love from others it resists;

pushing me from the very ones I subsist.

I don’t know how it started gaining control of

my thoughts and feelings of all I’ve come to know;

logic has disappeared into the depths below;

left in this abyss where nothing can grow.

No matter what I always was positive and happy,

but now I’m no longer the person I used to be;

all I am is just negative and full of apathy

and could care less now if I became a casualty.

It seems my actions are no longer benign;

as if I’m trying to ruin this life of mine.

The sparkle that was in me no longer shines;

I don’t know if anyone can stop this in time.

Constantly I have to deal with debilitating pain,

despite treatment my affliction doesn’t wane;

all my emotions and spirit have all but drained

and I wish I could go to sleep and there remain.

My love, I’m sorry for sounding so selfish,

to me you’re everything and you I will always cherish;

I thought the both of us would make it to the finish

but I can no longer live this life of anguish…

Copyright by NewLife2008