Color Negative

Looking out among the waves of doubt,

I try to muster up optimism but

I’m swallowed up by a sea of uncertainty;

wave after wave it’s seems relentless

and it feels like I’m drowning.

It seems my joyous outlook has been broken;

never did I think I would have ever succumbed,

but I’m older now and with it creeps self doubt.

Even though wiser, this world is more unstable

and because of it, so has become my life.

Even the simple things of life seem out of my reach;

I know they’re out there but no longer seem attainable.

The sun reminds me of my past happiness and

every day I live reminds me of how far removed I am

from it and the shaky ground my life is on.

Life is so beautiful and at the same time so cruel;

I know this isn’t what life is supposed to be but if you

live long enough you will be a victor and a victim.

So if I end up with nothing at the end, despite my faith,

I know in the end I will have conquered everything.

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You

I'm going to love you more than anyone else,

I'm going to love you even when you're not yourself.

All your hopes and fears sweetheart we'll conquer together

don't say a thing, just lay your head on my chest;

give yourself to me and I'll take care of the rest.

You are the source of my joy, you light my fire within,

you are the life I breathe and you make me whole again.

When I'm down I'm not there for long,

because you fortify me with your gentle reasonings;

your melodious tones are like a song

soothing my soul with your soulful seasonings.

What more can I do, I just want to be your everything;

you touch me without touching me at all

affecting my very being, I'll never be the same;

you are in my heart no matter how near or how far.

So just let me say this just one more time;

I'm going to love you more than anyone else,

I'm going to love you even when you're not yourself.

All your hopes and fears we'll conquer together

don't say a thing, just lay your head on my chest;

give yourself to me and I'll take care of the rest.

Copyright by NewLife2008

Sweet Addiction

You deceived me to my own detriment;

though oh such a sweet odor, I couldn't resist.

Consumed by blinded passion I'm immersed

in to feelings of euphoria waiting for my misery.

Time stands still or is it just my denial?

The former of I’m convinced until I’m betrayed

by the stinging chill of rejection that hits like a tsunami

and I’m floored as I feel the power of your rejection.

You mock me and I’m nothing but helpless

though you always lead me on thinking it will

be different; but again I agonize on why I

always let you get the best of me.

Oh the addiction that you are to me!

It seems I can’t break free from your salacious

appeal – but I can no longer indulge for you

betray me every single time – this is goodbye.

Cold turkey is my only salvation; I can’t

bring myself to indulge though thoughts

of you make me salivate – out of my life

forever and for me no more sleepless nights.

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Glen Rose State Park

“Glen Rose State Park.”

 “Dinosaurs.”

“Dinosaurs?”

“Glen Rose State Park?”

“Yes. Glen Rose State Park.”

“Dinosaurs.”

“Ready?”

“Yes!” you replied; “Let’s go!”

Off to the Texas Hill County

To see where the dinosaurs

Once roamed, 113 million years ago.

“This is a National Natural Landmark.”

I mentioned to you. “Because of their

footsteps being preserved in limestone,

sandstones and mudstones deposits.”

We went down to the riverbed

to searched for their presence

that occurred so long ago.

An impressionable young girl

you enjoyed the moment;

though lamenting the dinosaurs’ fate.

And just like those dinosaurs

our relationship unfortunately

became extinct; though the moment

forever etched in my memory.

Copyright by NewLife2008