Swallowed

Inside my heart, I find a black hole exists;

there sadness and hopelessness persists

despite the love from others it resists;

pushing me from the very ones I subsist.

I don’t know how it started gaining control of

my thoughts and feelings of all I’ve come to know;

logic has disappeared into the depths below;

left in this abyss where nothing can grow.

No matter what I always was positive and happy,

but now I’m no longer the person I used to be;

all I am is just negative and full of apathy

and could care less now if I became a casualty.

It seems my actions are no longer benign;

as if I’m trying to ruin this life of mine.

The sparkle that was in me no longer shines;

I don’t know if anyone can stop this in time.

Constantly I have to deal with debilitating pain,

despite treatment my affliction doesn’t wane;

all my emotions and spirit have all but drained

and I wish I could go to sleep and there remain.

My love, I’m sorry for sounding so selfish,

to me you’re everything and you I will always cherish;

I thought the both of us would make it to the finish

but I can no longer live this life of anguish…

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